ungrateful me
Do you ever think about how we filter our lives for blog posts? It seems, with the people I know best anyway, that we post about really nice times/feelings and when we feel particularly crappy, but there aren't many posts I've read which are concerned with the more mundane aspects of life. I know that's partly because it is mundane and therefore not such a good read but I think every now and then I would like to read about a boring day - just so I know it's not just me who has days that are totally uninspired and consumed with washing or cleaning or tax bills or other grown-up responsibilities. Today I woke up full of idealist thoughts about what we were going to do as a little family seeing as both my husband and myself were not working for almost a whole day (sad eh?)...nothing exceptional - perhaps a bike ride with our new baby seat, or a trip to feed the ducks together followed by coffee. Instead my mood slowly darkened as we began our chores - trying to retrieve things from my husband's smashed up car, trying to buy a new baby seat for his new car, buying milk and cat food etc. And instead of me enjoying the fact we were all together and healthy and happy and experiencing life in a pleasant way (if not exciting) I just started sulking about life not being the perfect adventure. My father always told me that if I felt bored it could only be with myself. It always comes back to me and I think he is probably right...I needed a slap and a shake. I am now going to get the hoover out and focus my thoughts on how lucky I am to have a nice home to clean and an instrument to do it so easily, a beautiful baby to make it dirty again and a lovely husband and friends who will see it in all states....
posted by raven at 7:05 pm
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hi, hope you don't mind me stopping by...my name is fancy-face and I have some pretty interesting things going on myself in life...but remember, without that little family in your life..where would you be, and who would you be?...stop on over anytime if you want to check out mine....beautiful little girl you have there...
Hi f-f..nice to have you stop by. will be sure to check out your blog....
You're right, on those days I either don't post, or I dig deep for something, anything. You have to take the good with the bad with the boring I guess.
Thing is, don't you find yourself purely wasting time sometimes in your attempts to avoid doing a chore? I have decided to aim to find the interesting in everything I do this week - pollyanna style. A kind of meditative-discipline-thing....
...on second deliberation I think my problem is that my life goes in extremes. Either I'm having the time of my life working with brilliant orchestras all over the place or I'm a stay at home mum with domesticity staring me in the face...both roles are nice and the time with my daughter is worth a million times more than anything else I do/have done/will ever do, but the household chores that go with it make my eyes glaze over....
I think those mundane times, are the ones that slip away without our due care and attention. They are the ones we miss most when people die. I had a friend die in January, and I miss those quite mundane moments the most. Those silent moments, when there isn't the static of the days activity rattling away in our minds. When we aren't talking to fill the quiet spaces. I miss those the most.
Hmm I love the idea behind this website, very unique.
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