bursting with things to say......

I've been working away and every minute of my time has been so valuable that I couldn't blog. I really wanted to as there have been so many things I have wanted to share/ponder but working away with a small child is hard and I just couldn't.. I have been doing some really bizarre concerts - one night we played (as an orchestra) at the Henley Regatta on a floating stage with Deep Purple. And most concerts recently have been big outdoors events with us in a festival type dome tent stage and fireworks and big loudspeakers to amplify the music to the massive audiences... I hate these concerts...they are always either patronised by the stinking rich with their misguided ideas that money=worthiness and virtue (rather than greed and corruption - as I see it) or the deeply patriotic - and I really find union jack worshiping grates on my conscious with all the war we are helping to create and the deeply ingrained colonial tendencies we, as a nation, display. And the music often includes things like Star Wars and James Bond which I find to be exciting but also very testosterone-filled and too much of it makes me feel a bit desensitized to the subtler side of myself.
I only have a few minutes now so I am going to remind myself of the the things I want to post about later...osteopathy, buddhism, drums, the sea, my mother, rejection. This is because for the last fortnight I have tried to remember the things I wanted to post about but stuff floats away and these things in particular I would like to explore....
...more when the baby bird is in bed and I have a little time to myself......