the sun has come out at last...

After a lovely day visiting a forest that is a haven for endangered red squirrels and having a lovely picnic with friends and my beautiful little family I am finally feeling a lot better. Like I have come out of a dark cupboard full of cobwebs that keep brushing against your face or something...I am more optimistic and ready to be pregnant again. Weird how I've struggled so much and I know it will be a feeling that will return but for now I am stronger than the emotion and so everything is ok. We have another midwife appointment on monday which I am looking forward to - although I am hoping I haven't put on too much weight yet. I think I'm ok - only about 1 or maybe 2 pounds which is fine as my boobs are bigger and there is another little person growing after all. Soon I'll have to switch to stretchy trousers again. O joy. Not. And the thing I'm looking forward to most? Being able to feel the funny little fluttery first movements of the little fledgling which should be pretty much any time in november....
The baby bird is fantastic. She suddenly has got loads of new words and is just about managing words ending in k although she does sound a bit too guttural in her eager attempts at pronouncing throat sounds. And she knows so much. And she sings constantly in her perfect little pure sweet (almost monotone but never mind she's trying) high voice. I am still every day amazed and thankful at how lucky I am to have this little person around me to enjoy life with..