water baby

Where will I possibly find the same amount of love from again? I know I will but I am constantly amazed by my strength of feeling for the baby bird. As I read somewhere today 'love feels like being halfway between deep satisfaction and cronic anxiety'. I have never worried so much about anyone or had so many ridiculous dangerous scenarios flicker past my eyes, but I have never looked at anyone and felt so much joy and pride and satisfaction either...
I say all this because the raven chick is getting ever closer to making an appearance and I am getting more excited and nervous by the minute (especially at night). Will the tiny creature be ok? Will the birth be ok? Will we quickly settle into a new family dynamic? Will the baby bird feel such intense emotion she won't have the capacity to express herself? So much to think about and yet I'm so excited about making our happy little family a bit bigger and welcoming another beautiful creature into our life with whom to share every little thing for a while and for the baby bird to have someone she can form a bond with that will be a new experience again and will teach her so much and give her so much. gush gush gush.
But first I have to turn my mind to making a 'birth plan'. Difficult. I think it's such a weird thing to do (I know it's not necessary but it is advised) - last time I was so open-minded about it all I just said I didn't want a cesarean or a general anesthetic. Hmm, bad luck then coz that was pretty much all I did have. This time I know will be very different and because I know so much more now I really do know what I don't want but then I haven't experienced birth before really so who knows what will happen or how I will feel? I want guidance but I don't really know where from and I think actually I know what I want but can't quite access it yet.... any ideas????